(everything is happening so fast)
I didn't think I was going to cry at work today, but I had another think coming! This:
"There is no bigger loneliness than pulling away from an embrace and understanding, from all angles, what that means. The hearts pressed together, then pulled apart. The fading in against the out."
I feel SO acutely. The letting go. The choice that's not a choice. My son is going to be 17 in May and he's not a senior yet, and he probably won't go to a 4-year college program, but watching the baby you held at 7 lbs turn into a full-on adult is insanely weird. I don't know Archer, but I have watched him grow up. Look at the path you managed to help him lay. What beauty. What exquisite pain.
You and your family are in my thoughts and my heart. <3
I lost my mom in December of ‘21 to ALS and I’m still done in by the experience. Every bit of grief that crosses my path since this big grief also does me in. I’m so sorry about your Mags. I had and lost a truly great dog once, right before I gave birth to my son. Total heartbreak and total joy all merged together. Anyway. I feel all of this and my heart hurts for you and your kids and I send you all a lot of love.
Grief is a battle for which one needs full armor along with all the space to weep. Be it your faithful dog dying, your firstborn leaving or your best friend dying (mine)… I’m hoping you lean on all who love you ‘cause how else can anybody even stand up? 💛
Mags sounds like she is the sage shepherd of your family - calm and steady. Present for a time when you and your children needed her presence greatly. Sent to you, I am certain. Preparing to say goodbye to a family member of this pedigree is a unique experience and a very, very deep loss. Even in the throes of grief, you have the best words and honour her by describing the shape of these feelings. I know very little for certain in this life, but I do know that all dogs go to heaven. Sending the biggest love to you and your family. XO
Boy does this hit home. Just Monday we took our ten year old cat to the ER vet because he hadn’t eaten or used his litter box in 24 hrs. After taking him in and being told it would be about $700 initially - we were told he would need to stay overnight to hydrate and get a sonogram which would be $3200 - that hit hard - but after getting ready to leave and head home - car battery died and had to wait for jump and since we were still outside the Vet office - they called and said they were able to get the sonogram and he has a mass in his abdomen / GI lymphoma. I was so upset - I had him since 2015 when a coworker couldn’t keep him anymore and he’s just been the most calm cat I’ve ever seen. Such a sweetheart. Luckily when I picked him up on Tuesday he was eating again and the doctor gave us steroids to treat him while he is still thriving. I at first thought we would have to put him down immediately / but this is buying time and it might seem selfish - but I could not bear having to be without him so soon. He may last another week or two but as soon as I notice anything that might suggest he is in pain we will take him in. I’m so sorry for what you are going through - I love him so much and I hate that it seems his life is being cut short. Our dog is 15 and I have no clue how long she will be with us - but all I know is I’m loving on both until I can’t. Lots of love to you and your family!
Thinking of you- sometimes knowing it’s happening to everyone everywhere makes the very shitty endurable and survivable. And sometimes not. Until we see we did endure and survive and thrive again. Bravo to Archer (and you) and I am so sorry it coincides with the bad news.
Sobbing. For all of it, all mixed together. ❤️🩹
My heart is with you. These things can really sneak up, yet also be a long time coming.
It really does seem like changes happen all at once. I will probably be exactly in the place where you are next year, as my daughter is going to be a senior next year and our dog Juliette will be 11 based on what they told us when we adopted her. It will tear my daughters heart to pieces as she prepares to step into the world on her own. Hang in there.
I am so sorry. Those furry things just climb into our hearts and make themselves comfortable, don't they? You have been lucky to be in each other's lives for a time. Take care.
sending you all the love and light I can. I understand what you're going thru with your sweet pup, as I've been there too many times.